I was keenly anticipating the super moon this week, excited to bath in her once in a lifetime luminescence. Even from our hillside perch overlooking the east coast, she remained mostly hidden behind a veil of cloud, showing us only fleeting glimpses. I read that this Taurus super moon was a time to reflect on what really matters and to assess whether we are living in alignment with our true values and purpose. A perfect opportunity to connect deeply with our authentic selves. Like most journeys of personal growth and recalibration, this moon was a slow reveal, gathering in momentum and culminating in a sublime showing when the conditions were right. This is not unlike my journey of transformation since arriving in the country. Sometimes propelled along by a desperate need to make sense of challenging circumstances but mostly in response to a growing desire to reconnect with my higher self and true purpose. In the process of managing life, multitasking and trying to prove myself, I lost touch with what really ignited my spirit and what it was like to be in the flow.
With the distractions of city life stripped bare and in relative physical isolation, there was no escaping myself, my monkey mind and some personal introspection. Thank goodness for the healing balm of the wilderness that surrounded me! When life gets hectic mother nature can be a calming force in a stormy sea if you’re willing to surrender to her rhythms. Chaos comes and goes but the sun always rises.
I feel deep gratitude for these moments of imperfection and struggle because in the words of poet Leonard Cohen (RIP), “there is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in’. My accupuncturist said to me the other day that my headaches were my entry ticket to the much bigger healing transformation on offer to me. They’ve forced me to slow down and re prioritise what’s important. To take time out and enjoy the lifestyle that we moved here for. To take more walks in the forest that’s my backyard.
Many cultures throughout history have acknowledged the positive benefits of being in nature. In Japan, Shinrin-yoku, or forest bathing, has become a integral part of preventative healthcare. There is a growing body of research that confirms our intuitive knowledge of the calming and restorative benefits of being in the wild including boosted immune system, deeper and clearer intuition, increased flow of energy and life force and increased capacity to communicate with country. I know now from my own experience that in nature we are more able to have conversations with our higher selves. The white noise immediately fades away and the whispers of our intuition cannot be ignored.
Despite this, I’ve had many moments of self doubt and the weight of responsibility of the farm symbolised an end to our roving days. This is the longest we’ve lived anywhere in the last 25 years. I’ve had itchy feet many times but I’ve developed a greater appreciation for playing the long game. Farming is not a short term enterprise and sweet satisfaction comes with patience and perserverance. I’ve realised that making it happen is the easy part, making it work is another story.
I love this quote by American author, naturalist and philosopher Henry David Thoreau on the importance of culturing our inner landscape:
“We must learn to reawaken and keep ourselves awake, not by mechanical aids, but by an infinite expectation of the dawn, which does not forsake us even in our soundest sleep. I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life by a conscious endeavour. It is something to be able to paint a particular picture, or to carve a statue, and so to make a few objects beautiful; but it is far more glorious to carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we look, which morally we can do. To affect the quality of the day, that is the highest of arts.”
I know now that real freedom is found in creating a life that you don’t need to escape from. To let go of old patterns and beliefs that no longer serve you. If you live in alignment with your values and purpose, you are empowered and it matters little where you are. Because at the end of the day, where ever you go you take yourself with you.