No better time than the first day of spring to write my first blog post right? Solar eclipse in Virgo, YES! Couldn’t be a more auspicious time to begin anew and trust the wisdom of the universe. But, I’ve spent all day procrastinating, fiddling with my wordpress theme and other acts of self sabotage, driven entirely by my fear of jumping into the great unknown of the blogosphere. I’ve moved countries and changed jobs, I moved HERE with much less angst but I’m finding this leap of faith particularly difficult. I’ve come to realise some of the most difficult hurdles are the ones we need to overcome in our own minds.
Moving to a relatively isolated rural community has forced me to rethink a lot of things about myself. I’ve learned to be creative and resourceful in so many ways I never dreamed of. But the most profound has been the seismic shift in the way I’ve come to view myself. In hindsight, the initial perceived ‘limitations’ I faced after moving to the country have been the biggest gifts of all. I’ve had to totally re think what I want to do and why, what’s really important to me, what MY basic needs are as a person, what brings me joy.
Despite loving books for as long as I can remember and making a living out of writing in some form or another my entire adult life, I’ve never considered myself a ‘writer’. A number of friends even suggested I start a blog when we made our tree change over four years ago, but at the time I thought who’s going to be interested in reading about us, we’re not doing anything special. As it happened I had no time anyway. We moved to the country to slow down but in typical fashion, we jumped into everything – animals, crops, projects and before we knew it that old familiar state of feeling overwhelmed was back. Another valuable lesson learned. Now we’re scaling back, learning what we can comfortably manage while maintaining the joy and enthusiasm we started this adventure with. Small steps, things happen when they happen and thats ok. It’s the journey, not the destination. Total cliche, but like all good cliches, absolutely spot on.
Life on the land can be one of extremes but there’s a richness to it I have not experienced anywhere else. There is something deeply satisfying about living in rhythm with nature. My husband has a sticker on his ute that reads ‘We all live downstream’. A beautifully simple reminder that we live within nature, not disconnected from it. We are reliant on its good health and vice versa and especiallly apparent in a community like ours, so dependent on a thriving river system for sustaining ourselves, our animals and each other.
At the very least this blog is a way for me to document the rich experiences we’re continuing to have on this tree change adventure and to reflect on what I’ve learned along the way. Sitting here writing this and about to hit the PUBLISH button, I feel totally out of my comfort zone. But I’m going to say YES and jump because “when it feels scary to jump that’s exactly when you jump. Otherwise, you end up staying in the same place your whole life. And that, I cant’t do.”